Chapter One - Many Names
"There and back again", as was written by Tolkien. It sure was to swep away all my curiosity, but there was one more feeling envolved. Something that is not the ansiety, but some kind of adventure feeling. I wanted to explore a new world. I disered to go at the limit. And it was not my self. Before I met that man, I wanted my life thinked, in trails. Now, I'm and adventurer.
I sure wanted to make sure to look confident and fearless, so I've gotten out earlier from the hotel and arrived at the same tree I was that afternoon at 11:30 p.m. But he was alredy there. And no, I did not look confident and fearless.
-Yeah, right in time sheep. - he says getting out of the alley and blowing the cigaret smoke at my face. Cigaret that he'd never was seen without.
-What? Sheep? What do you mean? And it's half an hour earlier, it's not in time!
-Yes, it's time. What thoughts says, words can't denie. But I saw the real time of this meeting in the smell of your ansiety, of your own curiosity. No, the time wasn't 0:00, it was earlier. You asked for that, the air, the birds, the tree, the streets. The time IS now.
-Bullshit... And what a fuck did you meant when you refered to me as "sheep"?
-You'll get all the "bullshits" I say. You'll understand every sheep, eye, ear and soul.
-How will I get somethig that maybe a senseless lie?
-Does your heart say that I am a lie? That this is a lie?
-My heart is as confuse as my mind. I'm here to listen, and to maybe understand.
-If you want to understand, it'll be enough your atention. Your ears, eyes and life got to be turned on my words. You'll listen, see and maybe die.
-DIE???
-IT's a little fairy tale - he says ignoring my last sentence - that I'll tell you. Let's take a walk, coz you'll want the possibility to run away. Oh, and if you get frightened, don't worry: part of the fun.
-Well, I'm nervous, but I can't say frightned... And I don't think you can inspire fear pal. For more odd that this is...
-Well brave man, so we shall walk and talk until the Sun no longer exist! But, before, have you discovered how do I know about your past? Your real past?
-No... And where have you fucking got that information? Danny told you didn't he? That stupid son of a bitch!
-Calm down! It wasn't Danny! And it was a question to instigate your curiosity about this talk. Listen to my tale, and you'll find out how do I know.
-You bastard motherfucker. Answer that! And also answer me what a fuck is that dying crap all about? What did you meant with that?
As I finish that phrase, I rub my hand al over my face cleaning the sweat form my face. But that don't work: my hands are as sweated as my face. The sweat only spread in my face, showing how nervous I really am. Once again he does not answer to my questions and goes on talking:
-I shall tell you my storie following the many names I had alredy been called. And some names I gave to my self. But you'll hear then all, and believe me, I had many, many, many names. Let's take I walk, and I'll start with...